One of our regular contributors, David Daniel, sent us this story called “The Day Before Christmas,” which we are happy to run on the day-before-the-day before Christmas to give our readers extra time to enjoy the story. To learn more about Dave and his books, see this author’s note from The Storyside site.—PM
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The Day Before Christmas
By David Daniel
I knocked on the door of the small trailer set up on a city lot amid a mini-forest of cut trees. There were plenty of them still there, not a good sign on the day before Christmas. Worse when you’d fronted the money for them. After a delay the door opened.
“Merry Chrishmish,” Charlie Webb said, words slurred by his missing front teeth, though probably that wasn’t all. “C’mon in.”
A fifth of Old Crow stood on the coffee table. It’s a Wonderful Life was on the little TV.
“I’m gettin’ ready to pour my holiday dinner,” Charlie said. “Y’hungry?”
“I just stopped by to see how it’s going.”
Though I knew the answer the moment I pulled up. Tomorrow was Christmas. No one buys a tree on Christmas Day.
He shrugged. We had lost our shirts. What the hell; I had a closet full of shirts. I’d only partnered with Charlie on the trees as an investor. I’d lost my wife that July 22nd. Charlie was still wearing the pink ribbon that folks wore at the funeral.
“Just a little taste?” he asked. “Spirit of the sheashon?”
“All right, a taste.”
He shut off the TV, put in his teeth, then poured it. When he clinked my glass his sloshed a little. “Friends through years, friends through tears,” he said.
I recalled an earlier drunken Charlie Webb in a Christmas season long past, back when we were in our twenties, sharing an apartment over on Mill Street, in the student ghetto. Our other roommate, Donny DelGado, was younger, in school. Charlie was in school too, both of them going to avoid being drafted. In Charlie’s case the dodge didn’t last long. Me, I was out of the army and taking a few classes. I didn’t even sign up, just went over to campus and sat in on things that looked halfway interesting. One was a class in Fortran, that’s how long ago it was—and though I didn’t know it at the time, it set me on a road that led to my getting a degree in programming and a career that lasted almost forty years. Another class (one lecture’s worth) was a British Lit course given by a tall gawky guy who wore a bow tie that bobbled on his Adam’s apple as he spoke, and who I later discovered was a renowned scholar. On the day I attended class he was speaking about a poet named Walter de la Mare; and maybe it was a combination of the eccentric professor and the poet with the weird name, but I stayed, oddly fascinated, sitting at the back of the lecture hall as he presented a poem, which he recited from memory. The poem was called “Alone” and it made an impression on me. Maybe because I was back from the Viet Nam War and something in the lines spoke to how I was feeling. “Come moth, come shadow, the world is dead . . .”
But that was thinking I did later.
Charlie Webb was in college only to avoid the draft. A student wasn’t anything he had ever been, not back in our days in high school, certainly not then, and not since. Charlie was always alive in the moment, and his moment ran high on drama.
I remember a night shortly before the term ended for Christmas break. He’d left behind in the dormitory storage room some piece of furniture—an easy chair, I think—but when he went to claim it for our ratty off-campus apartment, it was gone. The three of us had been drinking, of course, the alchemies of the season, and factor in Donny DelGado’s wine, too. Donny’s family were bearers of their ethnic heritage and his dad grew grapes on an arbor in their tiny yard and made wine—wine it’d be smarter to gargle and spit out than drink, but students are cheap drunks, or, at least drink cheap. We knocked back most of a gallon jug and as we stood there outside Charlie’s old dorm, a vast hive-like structure of brick and concrete, Charlie suddenly cried, “Step back.” Before we could move, he’d gripped a corner of the building in his arms and, with righteous indignation, was shouting into the courtyard: “I’m gonna turn this place upside down till I get my frickin’ chair!”
In our blitzed condition we imagined he was giving the building a good hard shake, that inside, phonograph needles were skreeking across Aretha Franklin records, furniture was jumping, file drawers crashing open, and students were being flung every which way. “I’m gonna shake the goddamn bricks loose!” yelled Charlie, his face crimson with strain.
Nowadays you’d be arrested and charged with terrorism or some such, but those were different times. When Charlie finally stepped back, breathless, we braced ourselves like warriors, waiting for a storm of angry students to come pouring out, like Frankenstein villagers with pitchforks and torches. No one appeared. Finally, Charlie snorted: “Prob’ly too damned chicken. Le’s go the hell home. Y’got any more of that wine, Donny?”
The thought of anyone being afraid of Charlie Webb, then or now, was risible. He stood about five-four and had a head of curly yellow hair—gray now, though still thick. He looked like a drunken Christmas angel, as harmless as Frank Capra’s Clarence. As I said, he was no student, it just wasn’t in his DNA. After another semester he flunked out and got drafted, would have ended up in the army except on the day of his induction the marines were a few good men short on their quota.
Military service was hard on Charlie. Like so many young guys before him and after, with no discernable skills, he became a trigger puller, and his 365 days in Viet Nam came at a bad time for U.S. combat soldiers. When he got back, I was settled in college, serious and focused on a degree, no longer smoking pot or running wild. We both had changed. I didn’t know him.
“Hey, Kev,” he said now. “When I was a li’l kid and someone had one of them, whaddya call it, feed trough things . . . you know, at Christmas?”
“Like the barn, with the animals and Mary and the wise men and stuff—”
“That what it’s called?”
“The crèche, yeah.”
“Well, I used to always look for John Virgin.”
“‘Round John Virgin’, you know, ‘mother and child.’ That’s what I thought it was. I always looked for a li’l fat dude.” He laughed. “Now I frickin’ am him.”
“But not a virgin, I hope.”
“Well, I guess I had my moments.”
When he offered the bottle of Old Crow I shook my head. He topped off his glass. But he didn’t raise it. He gave me a glance of unexpected clarity, looking right at me. “You miss her.”
“Yeah,” I said. “I do.”
“I know. Well, hell, who wouldn’t? She was aces, man. Best thing ever happened to your raggedy ass. And was always kind to me.” He drank.
To change what I feared would be awkward, I said, “How about a poem, Charlie. I’ll recite a poem.” I was thinking of that class I’d once taken with the distinguished professor, that day when he’d recited a poem by Walter de la Mare.
I had found and memorized it. It was, as I said, called “Alone.” I didn’t know then, or care, that de la Mare wasn’t a poet critics thought much of anymore. I still don’t care. I recited it.
The abode of the nightingale is bare,
Flowered frost congeals in the gelid air,
The fox howls from his frozen lair:
Alas, my loved one is gone,
I am alone:
It is winter.
Once the pink cast a winy smell,
The wild bee hung in the hyacinth bell,
Light in effulgence of beauty fell:
I am alone:
It is winter.
My candle a silent fire doth shed,
Starry Orion hunts o’erhead;
Come moth, come shadow, the world is dead:
Alas, my loved one is gone,
I am alone;
It is winter.
“Daa-amn,” Charlie said with near reverence, “that shit’s messed up. It’s deep.”
I shrugged and we sat in silence for a time. Then he said, “How ’bout we take a coupla these trees down to the homeless shelter? They’ll use ’em. We can help set ’em up.”
Outside the snow had that blue cast that comes once the afternoon has tipped toward dusk. Beyond the lines of unsold trees, I saw a big crow perched on a snowbank: a simple world. A world that made me think of pre-9/11, before John Lennon was murdered, and John Kennedy even.
We selected three of the best firs and Charlie used a saw (as I watched nervously) and put a fresh cut on them, then we loaded them into the back of my SUV.
“Ready?” he said.
“Ready, but none of that, okay? Let the trees be holiday cheer enough.”
Charlie capped the bottle and set it on the trailer steps. The SUV smelled good inside, like balsam fir.
“To Chrishmisheses past,” Charlie said, giving it an extra syllable. We were both closing fast on sixty-five, he and I. He’s pudgy now; I’m bald. Donny DelGado hadn’t made the cut; he’d died two years ago. Bad genes or bad choices—too much of the Portuguese wine?—who knew? Sides of the same coin, I guess.
“We’ll swing by my house and get some lights,” I said, turning back to now. “There are plenty.” I didn’t tell him I hadn’t set up a tree this year. It was something Linda and I had always done together. She’d loved that Katy Perry song about a cozy little Christmas.
“Roger that,” Charlie declared. “It’ll be a good Chrishmish.”
—David Daniel © 2019